i'm back" :(

a day away from my n'level...
i fell ill... coughing like no ones business...
i cried while watching ps: i love you. seriously i had a great cry..
no one was home only me and the tv...
i felt as if i relate to the movie. Even though i'm not married or have a
dead husband it's just that i just touched me. i feel that life has to move on with or without your love ones around you.. honestly i lost 2 of my great-grandmother in a year, it's very chaotic you know it sucks...
it's my crucial year in school and yet things like this happens :(
my grandmother just don't understand how i feel... i'm going to burst...
my grandmother just don't get me. no one does...
i feel like as if i don't have best friends,
today, i badly wanted to tell someone how i felt but everyones just so busy..
everyone is moving on and only me is left in the dark alone,
i feel like i've lost all of my bestfriend and i have no connection of what so ever with anyone. (my family, my friends and even my pet!)

with you with another there's just no space for me to fit in..
i no longer have a space in your life..
you have another person you can rely on you don't need me. you simply just go away. i never ask you to leave, you chose it that way..
if i die now it will be a perfect ending but i can't cause i haven't repay for
my sins...