how am i suppose to feel right now.

Imagine seeing each other for 4 years, 5 days a week and now,
we don't get to see each other at all..
awkward and sad feeling, with no doubt i miss you all..
i miss the laughter, the fights, mostly the lame jokes,
yes,
it's irritating

but that's what makes you so real.

not perfect but real.
we had our differences maybe that's why we click so well.
now, everyone around you currently is fighting for the same dream as you.
it's too frightening to trust once again.

trust to me last time was like training wheels now it's like without the training part,
i'm left alone. i'm scared.

my best friend left me, i'm scared to be left alone again. it's really scary..
i don't know, feeling afraid wasn't what i had in mind.
i've been putting on a strong front for 4 freaking years and finally i just broke down.
what is a hopeless girl suppose to do.