it was all i had.

i'm closing down my blog soon..
i haven't been blogging.. i think i'll remake my blog.. i'm disowning this blog :(

i'm scared
i'm not sure if i wanna blog.
i'm afraid to offend people, really.
i'm sorry but i'm just gonna say it.

i miss you alot, we've been the best of friends for 3 years. why did you just leave like that. i feel like a lost dog. i'm really heart broken. i just think that you should come to your senses. i love you as my best friend but what am i to you. just a doll that can entertain you for a minute and be placed aside just like that, when you found something else. i don't know.
others say that they already predicted that you would leave me, official they were proven right recently.. you care less now, you don't care about your family and friends anymore. i regret too many things, i wish i hadn't encourage you. you've found your true love but you lost oh so much... like your, family and your friends.
do you remember saying that you can live without him and that you still have your family and friends to live your life for. do you still remember the promise you've made. you promise not to do anything stupid because of him. i guess you've forgotten.
the only thing you can remember is him.
i guess your anniversary with him would be oh so much more worth and important then celebrating my birthday with me. you promised to celebrate my birthday this year, has that promise been forgotten too.
these words i've just written was something i have kept for oh so long in my heart.
i had to gather all my guts to write it down, after you read this, nothing will change, right. you'll just ignore this, right.
you'd just pretend like you've not seen this, right. well,let me tell you this carine, i was the one with you when you cried and needed someone there and easily you've forgotten me.
well all i gotta say is... well, i don't know what else to say. it's just that i'm sorry, sorry for reasons you think i shouldn't be sorry for (in the past)...
if sorry would make my best friend come back. i would bow in front of you, to do so, in front of million of people. i would just throw my pride away to have my old best friend back.
i don't know what's worth anymore.